Update..

yup..
all's gd..
today, i spend e day arranging for jobs.
u know.. something i promised myself i have to fufil.
i mean. i know i'm lazy.. and i know i can act like e worst kinda spoilt brat u can find on living earth..
so this is gd.
teaches me abt life.
tht money is hard to earn and all tht crap.
my dad is encouraging..
which he has always been.
both my parents.. treat me like a princess.
i'm grateful for everything i have.

i wanna think i'm a surviver on this planet.
even if i may seem weak.
and indecisive.
i know..
i can go through hell and bounce back.
its just 1 of the things tht ppl quickly adapt and learn along the way.
i am no less e same.

i hope i can go for my upcoming short trip with my bf and his bunch of frens.
even though..
i tend to see no sliver lining on any cloud.
i assume e worst and believe it.
i know tht its quality time with e bf.
since. we have been on a less den happy note.
busy with something. or basically unhappy over something.
its a little upsetting for me.

but u see,
i treat this again as something i have gone thru b4
i already knew what is suppose to be and how things will turn out to be
and.. lets just say its on a for me to know for u to find out sorta basis.

nevertheless.
he is my bf.
and.
for all i know.
he is impt to me.

i just need to be patient and understanding.
if i havent done enough.
i dont know what is seriously.
i have tried my best.