Oon Myung

i sometimes think in life, u gotta learn to love urself first before u attempt to love others.
i totally put my trust in this saying.
because when u r unhappy with urself. u r unhappy with everyone else.
u will resemble this bitter old lady tht is nvr satisfied with anything.
so she starts to find some fault or see e mistakes tht others make.. and basically just go spoil e other person's mood altogether.
all because she is genuinely unhappy inside.
but of course this old lady do have her gd times. i mean, given e benefit of e doubt tht no one can have a bad day everyday.
there will always be tht something to make her feel glad tht she's alive.
but well, this old lady she'll feel tht this temporary happiness only releases her from her inner frustrations.
known to her tht of course,
this goes in a cycle.
and this problem nvr really goes away.

all i'm saying is..
i just wanna make peace with my own life.
i feel disorganised.
i feel i'm neglecting everything tht is impt.
i feel...numb to certain things.
and i'm tired of going thru my own "day to day" as if i'm staring at it from a bullet train.

and of course.
with love
its always so hard.
yet it can be simple.
what a paradox.
one day, i might not be able to keep up with it..