Don't Dig The Grave

Me and Bi went off to town to hang out. This was my last chance to have a gd time b4 slogging off my week at swensen's.Took a train there. all the while talking. We walked and talked some more till we went to cine to catch e longest yard. Freaking cool show. Later we headed to borders to catch up on reading. I love reading tabloid mags. who has cellitute? who has giant boobs? funny la... all these nonsensical stuff makes me crack up. there's one section with fashion faux pax tht celebrities commit.. damn bloody funny.. i was shaking with laughter i swear someone turned ard to look at me. Bi was off to his political/religion/war/autobiographical section...his favorite kinda books. how "intellectual"... but at least he can review them to me later. get my opinions on things.. u dont just be with someone from law for nothing.. conversations never get boring.

Had a late dinner at Fish&Co.. coriander dory fish and rice... yummy..the ambience was nice from wheellock place... coz u can just see the view of the streets night lights. u realise that there r some really weirdo ppl ard town... u see 2 men at a table... u see andrew seow walking with another man across e road... i accept it.. but still i am uncomfortable. its a hard to describe personal feeling...

Later as we walked thru the sparse crowd on the streets...it was a nice... i know its not a gd word to describe it... but "magical" would be a freaking cheesy attempt to state e feelings revolving in me.. perhaps "comfortable" is just e right word...but while we were waiting 4 e train.. i had to mention that inevitably we have to bump into his ex...oops! poor girl...i saw e look in her eyes. she looked sad... he looked stunned...then he quickly walked away n directed me in e opp. direction. so awkward la...i felt like giving them some alone time.. but he hurriedly said hi n walked off... he must have been trying to run away from her or something...i was feeling strangely intrusive at this point..we ended up laughing abt the whole situation though...when really i'm suppose to be feeling like i can stab her with a knife... but i waved at her b4 i was forced to walk away by Bi...i'm still civilised...i guess 1 sided love is e most heartbreaking thing.. i just hope i'll nvr be stuck in something like that.. i probably wont.. coz i will jump off e sunken ship before reality sinks in.. i dun wanna become an emotional wreck..

well he walked me home.. we chatted 4 awhile by e poolside... n he was worried tht i was affected by what happen just now.. which strangely didnt affect me much.. either my trust in him is super strong or i feel super secure... isnt tht e same thing? owells... no matter what.. what we have is nw.. n nw is e only thing tht matters... we have decided to let e past be in e past... don't dig e grave..

Just finish talking on e phone with him.. n somehow i just cant get enuff of it...