Tears In Heaven

Today i received my o'level results... yes i'm in the 2004 batch and the unlucky me has to compete with 50,000 other applicants to get to my ideal school... which leaves me in a dilemma... should i go to a jc or a poly? coz my grades still leaves me dangling in mid air... 16 for L1R5 and 13 for L1R4... still, i wanna thank God for working his miracles and assuring me all these while i can make it... i'm contented... well i should be, coz if i wanna compare, i could compare with ppl who have 9 distinctions and feel like i stink or i could compare with ppl who failed Eng /Emaths or had 40+pts and feel like i have made it...so anyhow, what God planned for me is really marvelous... he doesn't put me in a situation and i thank him for his mercy and grace... i just hope that all my frens out there, however they scored,they can acheive what they want...coz i know how tough this has all been... it ain't easy at all...hmmm....we should stop all the tears of joy or pain and think abt what to do next... no point crying over spilt milk... i know it sounds easier said than done... but i have had things to cry over too... like how i could have done better and all... but i think its a little too late...

Also, i think the whole o'level saga has helped me identify who are my true frens and who had truly cared... i used to think that some of my lost friendships were lost coz we didn't kept in contact, but the sad thing is... it was lost coz the other person has lost interest in me and couldn't care less to ask how i did...i have had that experience today and it has woke me up finally and hopefully ( yes, i'm refering to that one person i was never to talk abt ANYMORE)...

Well, i ended my tiring day of running ard from sch to sch and celebrating at a mediterraen restaurant by watching the last and final VCD of my korean drama...it had me in tears for 5 mins.... not bad considering how it was too drama rama to be true... the lead actress finally died in the arms of her lover and she was going to be reunited with her brother(who has a thing for her) up in heaven coz he had killed himself so that he could give up his corneas to let her see her lover's face again since she was blind (don't ask me how it got so complicated, i'm just as puzzled)Haiz...so many things happened today that i feel like i'm glue to the windows of a bullet train... flashing sceneries of today just flashing by with unstoppable madness...today is crazy i can bet with you...